I have that shitty feeling where all I want to do is sleep. I just hate that feeling because it reminds me of this winter, aka the worst for months of my entire life. I should be cleaning right now, but I really don’t want to. Who cares. I turned off my cell phone and I want to delete my Facebook. Then I want to go on a vacation and not tell anyone where I’m going. Running away is my favorite thing to do. As long as I still want to run away, it means I’m not attached to anything, and then there’s nothing that I have to worry about losing. 

I just re-read all of that and I sound so emo. I swear I’m not, I just really don’t feel like cleaning. I never had to clean at home. I’m going to go take a shower.

Nikki, age 18